And I wondered again.

Woohoo!
I made it back in one piece.
And yes, I would things right this time.

I've been thinking a lot for the pass 2 weeks and finally, YES! I've decided to put away whatever has been bugging me and probably never speak a word about it anymore. *Crosses fingers

On top of all that, I pondered about my life too.
Sadly, realised I've changed so much over the past 2 years.
And I seriously hated the changes I see in me.

Where is that girl who would always cry when she fail a test?
Where is that girl who would always study before a test or an exam?
Where is that girl who is ever so serious in her work?
Where is that girl who never dared to skip lessons?
Where is that girl who is never late for lessons?
Where is the girl who always placed studies as her top priority?
Where is the girl who once made my parents so happy in the midst of "family crisis"?
Where is the old me? I don't see it anymore.

All I see now is a girl who
Doesn't give a shit about failing or doing badly.
Skipped so many lessons that she totally lost count of it.
Have to rely on my friends on school days to wake me up.
Have to rely on my friends on sundays to wake me up for service (church).
Always LATE for school, cellgroup, outings, etc.
Always sleeping late.
Always falling asleep during lectures.
Always so forgetful.
Always dreaming/stoning.
Argh! What's happening to me?

I desperately need to change.
Difficult, yes,
But I know one thing for sure, God would always be with me.